Watch “Vertical Horizon-Everything You Want (Lyrics)” on YouTube

This song is about waiting for someone you care about to notice you. I think this is how it must have felt like for Erik to watch me with my shitty exes. Heard this song while shopping and had to try to not like break down in the middle of the goddamn store like a hormonal fucktard.

In the same context, Rick has been my friend while with my exes and seen me fake my way into being happy. I tried to. I tried the fake it until you make it. It doesn’t work.

I shutdown like a windows computer with too many processes happening at once into my shell. Nothing matters, I don’t talk to anyone. Everything is meaningless when I get into a funk or situational depression episode. I have so much to be thankful but I don’t know why anymore.