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P!nk – Whataya Want From Me – Music Video

This video actually had me choke up lol the other video was a still picture. This is much better obviously T_T I nearly cried …..Like a little bitch. LOL But I’m bored and I thought about doing another lyrical interpretation. xD 

It’s safe to say this is my new favorite song. I love pink. I grew up listening to her and just about every song of hers was like my life story. So I’m shocked I’ve only just stumbled on this.

Hey, slow it down
What do you want from me
What do you want from me

Everything happened so fast for me. In the first year, I had learned so much and grown spiritually. Some times I need to take a break. In the dream where he told me I needed to get back on the spiritual path. I tried to brush him off.

Yeah, I’m afraid
What do you want from me
What do you want from me

He admits he’s afraid I would give up on my spiritual journey being that it’s so hard.

There might have been a time
I would give myself away
(Ooh) Once upon a time
I didn’t give a damn
But now here we are
So what do you want from me
What do you want from me

Years ago I gave myself away and wasted time on people who didn’t appreciate me but at the time it didn’t matter. When I saw someone suffering I stepped in to help in hopes of figuring out why I felt so compelled to do it. For Erik I wouldn’t have been any different.

Just don’t give up
I’m workin’ it out

I don’ want Erik to give up on me. Every day I’m working it all out. Having a dead TF is difficult to deal with. Some days are harder than others.

Please don’t give in
I won’t let you down

Erik says this pretty much all the time when I’m thinking about quitting my journey. Erik promises he’d always around and he’s around to help me.

It messed me up, need a second to breathe

From the psychic predicting his death in the past to living day to day life in the present, sometimes I need a break.

Just keep coming around

Erik always wants me to come back “home”; a safe space I created to meet with Erik and others when we have our discussions.

Hey, what do you want from me
What do you want from me

Yeah, it’s plain to see
that baby you’re beautiful
And there’s nothing wrong with you

Erik’s said something like this when I wonder if I’m crazy or losing my mind. 

It’s me ’ I’m a freak
but thanks for lovin’ me
‘Cause you’re doing it perfectly

I always felt like some kind of freak and different from everyone else. I’ve had a lot of bad attention (bullying) because of being different.

There might have been a time
When I would let you step away

Erik has had let me go back when I figured him out years before I actually did. I avoided him and all things spiritual-related. I was off the path for a few years. Now he’s not willing to let it happen again.

I wouldn’t even try but I think
you could save my life

I wont do what I did before because I think he could save my life.

So I had just told Erik that we need to be just working with each other. This relationship or whatever it is, is pointless. At most, just working. I can’t deal with everything else anymore. This song can’t be more on point rn. It’s too hard and complicated and the past 2 months have been hell and people just make things worse. I’ve not been this depressed in a long time. This song is on repeat in my head because I’ve memorized it already.

I know if I go out tonight I might sing this song or whatever depressing bunch I can muster while drunk off my ass. Doubt it will make me feel better. This has been a bad PMS ride in a long time. Idk if things will go back to how it was with Erik and I. I just see no point in believing anymore if he wasn’t going to wait for me before killing himself or even love me at all. Ive not fully healed from the trauma I’ve been through all because my intuition “begged” me to look for him just so that a psychic (world renowned) could predict his death for it to really happen months later.

My whole life is full of ironic bullshit. Like that fucking Alanis Morrisette song. Hmmm I might sing that too.

Oh and what kind of kills me about this video is that I can relate to that to the many stages of my life from high school goth phase, being in a band, self mutilation, journalling, partying and to when I started this journey. That’s why I love this video so much.

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