Self-doubt

Sometimes I lay in bed and I just think back. I wonder if I’m insane. Sometimes I start to convince myself that I am. Then Erik will say something and the very same thing manifests. I don’t ask for signs or probe him with meaningless questions. He just feels what I feel and always wants to do something to fix it. Especially if it has anything to do with a crisis of faith or self-doubt.

I never ask for help. It’s something I need to work on. So in knowing that, sometimes I will have dreams where he shows up to remind me of my role, I see 1s,4s, and ,7s combinations, or remember all of the things we have worked on. You get the idea; I doubt and neat things happen….It NEVER gets old!