Level Up!
I thought about our next or maybe last life here. I used to be so angry I’d think that I would make him work hard to get me. Sort of play hard to get or, you know, just make things not so easy for him because in all our past lives he made my life hell. It’s no better this life. He’s dead. I felt it was right for karma. On the topic of unconditional love I realized that I was placing conditions on him for our next life. What I mentioned before about making him work to have me in our next life.
Erik had to watch me live without him for so long. He watched me suffer through abusive relationships, suicide attempts, my depression, etc. I suddenly had this thought its not necessary. All the pain adds up and it has to stop. We deserve better. Why make him suffer again? He’s learned!
So I went to the astral house quickly.
I’ve got to get ready to go out. My bf and I decided that karaoke is okay. Anyway I went to Erik and promised that I’d wait for him. The karma is all over. We’re done so there’s no need to do this anymore. I promised that I’d love him and only him. Lol he said:
Leveled up!
I was like lol 😆 really? I guess he’s right. Ding it is then. Feeling a bit better. Still real sad but I’m trying. He told me to get going and I actually need to get ready now.
