Remembering Matt (Sean)

Some of my favorite texts…

As you can see I cared about him and maybe a little too much. I didn’t think he appreciated me or cared about me at all because there were something said and done while we were in Texas that made me think he was using me. So sometimes I was cold or dismissive.

I don’t want to talk to him. I don’t want to know what happened. I made it very clear with Erik that it’s okay if he relays the messages. But talking to my late friends is going to upset me. I’m not ready for that.

This is the hardest part about being intuitive.

I’m not handling this well. Wish there was some kind of intuitive therapist to talk to about all of this shit. This fucking blows.