It’s Sinking in!

I cant believe I’m in a band. Of course we are still in the EP stage working on a set. With covid happening I feel like it kind of buys us “time” because as it looks, we might go back to lock down. We are working remotely and my bf just sent me the lyrics for the first song. I think tomorrow we will work out the vocals together.

No, I never wanted to be famous. I don’t want any of that stuff. Honestly I’d be happy being underground and not some band tied to record contracts. Lables are sneaky bastards. I mean, I don’t think any kind of contract is for me. That’s why I have metro pcs for cell service roflmao 😆.

But seriously, I would likely step down if things got weird.

And that’s okay. I’m just thinking. That’s all. I know if this is the route they plan to make and they really go with it, I’ll make my decision then. There are still so many unknowns. I’m just happy to be working with a dedicated band. 😌 One step at a time. Maybe I’ll change my mind…

Kind of avoiding Erik rn 🤷‍♀️🤦‍♀️

To me he appears older. He ages with me and I asked that he would just because it would make things less weird. I got to thinking. Which obviously I’ve been doing a lot of today. I’m 33…🤮 I’m basically a cougar. Okay I’m a little young to be a cougar but pretty close? Even though I have the maturity of a 20 year old?

I don’t want things to be awkward. His bday is coming. But he’s dead. Ugh I’m being mellow dramatic again. 🙄 Fuck me…At least he doesn’t care. Of coooooooooooooooooourse he doesn’t fucking care.

Yeah as long as he’s okay with just listening to music with me and not bring up my age, his bday, the fact I’m starting to feel weird. I really hate it. My period must be coming since I’ve been emotional and overthinking shit all fucking day. 😒 I’m just going to lay down and listen to music.

😘💕 Good niiiiight!

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