Who Is Samuel?

So we all have higher selves. Well this is a name he (Erik) gave me for he higher self. It’s kind of really named between us.

Do we have more than one higher self?

Imo, it can appear that way when we look at our spirit guides, they operate with or alongside our higher selves without actually being the higher self. From what I’ve seen so far, we have one but a spirit guide within our spiritual team can step in if they want to. Depending on your perception and your core beliefs they can be one in the same I guess. In my experience the spirit guide will relay messages to the higher self who will then talk to you or whatever like a chain of command.

Anyway so Samuel is the name of Eriks higher self or like Vanessa it’s an alternative name to her REAL name. What I found very interesting is that the name Samuel meaning is matched with his REAL spirit name. Just like Vanessa being my higher self, her name is ALSO linked to her REAL identity also in the Realms. We chose these names as place holders between US. For our purpose. I just find it very very interesting how the connections are. Very cool actually.

I won’t name our real identities because its not important. It’s just a little controversial and I rather not explain the whole mess again.

For me, Erik’s higher self is called Samuel.

So we are twin flames. Obviously that means our higher selves are pretty much like white on rice too. This is how twin flame connections operate. It just makes sense. Because time isn’t linear and all things are happening at the same time, if connection is tightly wired, the things our higher selves are doing behind the scenes can be made felt.

This would explain the reason for how I was compelled to find Erik in a way that felt beyond just finding a soul mate or whatever. Because it was like that I had a sense to find and protect Erik first and everything else was second. My higher self pulling me into racing the clock for 15 years until the psychic predicted to me his death. Later in 2009 the urgency went away.

So they are together.

Most of the time my higher self is in her garden, in the realms, or with children. I don’t concern myself with what Erik/Samuel is doing. For all I know he’s in his garage, doing his own shit.

Samuel looks like if Geralt (The Witcher) and Christian Grey had a baby. ๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿผโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿคฃ And it’s just off-putting. Even more uncomfortable is feeling and seeing my higher self and Samuel together. It makes me sick. I’m not a sap and I don’t care for the mushy gushy lovey dovey shit. ๐Ÿคข๐Ÿคฎ No thanks! They can keep it.

Our higher selves don’t feel our human emotions.

Talking to my higher self I have to explain or more like Erik/Samuel explains my feelings. She can feel my emotions but doesn’t understand them and high emotions are toned down so bad she doesn’t get why I’m so emotional. She can cry but its not the same. Like if im crying, she feels it, knows it’s sadness or whatever but it’s just not intense feeling. If that’s making any sense. ๐Ÿ™„ I don’t even know anymore lol. I’m half asleep.

So when Vanessa cries, I only get teary-eyed because my higher self is happy. It’s not usually sad tears. Like when I watch a sappy show and suddenly im fighting back tears. It’s not really ME because I don’t do that, I’m feeling her so feelings are felt on both of us. A happy ending on a show or movie and then I feel the need to grab tissues and tell her to calm her ass down because it ain’t that fucking serious. Her favorite anime is Sailor Moon. ๐Ÿค”๐Ÿ™„ Gee, I wonder why…

…I know why.

My higher self has had a hard time telling a tv show from real life.

I guess because life is a real shit show and I’ve been watching a lot of news and tv with her present lately. Guess maybe she got curious. We were watching planet of the apes she she thought it was the news. ๐Ÿ˜‚ I can somewhat understand why but we had to explain actors and what they do in the sense that in a similar fashion she’s acting as human with me being incarnated. You’d think she’d know that…๐Ÿคท๐Ÿผโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿผโ€โ™€๏ธ

The world is a stage as we are spiritual beings playing a human existence on the show called Earth so its like our lives are being watched like a shitty reality TV show. Basically. Like that meme.

But my higher self NEVER EVER CURSES.

I noticed that when I coaxed my higher seld into trying, it sounded so bad. It’s like if a valley girl spoke ebonics. ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿ˜‚ Lmao IT JUST DOESN’T WORK!!….oh God I’m cracking the fuck up. Samuel curses but to show emphasis. It’s not willy nilly or casual cursing just for the fucks of it. It’s just to show and express emphasis and call attention to something.

Think I’ve sleepy-rambled enough.

๐Ÿ˜˜โค Stay cool!

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