Semi-crying talking about suicide and wanting to die…
2007..bad break up with Jhon which was unfortunate for me because we have the same “background” so it was nice to meet someone with kind of the same genetic make-up without being related in any way.
I was contemplating killing myself and told a friend so that was also spread I was looking for attention when I really wasn’t. I legit needed help and no one would take me seriously. It was at a point I felt trapt. I no longer had any friends.
People used to call me Ugly Betty and bullied me about it. Basically ranting about being bullied and not having the ability to go anywhere like The Mall to hang out without my old “friends” and complete strangers harrass me over something I did. It was something taken out of context and used up the ass to make me miserable.
This was headed toward a mental breakdown and depression leading up to Erik’s suicide in 2009. I had to quit my job (temporaily) and I think take time off from college or I emotionally checked out and almost flunked out. I actually didnt graduate High School. I dropped out because of the breakdown and this was part of why. The bullying and John basically used me for the fact I was so much younger than him.
Going for a year back then, it was rumoured that I was a whore-able person and all kinds of shit was spead about me that weren’t true.
…Oh and this was while my mom was diagnosed with cancer for the first time. I knew she was taking narcotics and was contemplating an overdose.
(ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:・ﾟ✧Don’t forget to take a look at Erik’s blog ran by his amazing mom Dr Elisa Medhus. Lots of stuff about his afterlife and shit. channelingerik.com.