He said, “Listen Monique. Don’t forget. Don’t forget you are my lovely wife. Don’t forget.”
Fuck my eyes are tearing up. In almost 3 days I’ll be gone for about a week. Thank God for internet and online friends to somewhat keep me sane. I’m out of klonopin so this will be fun. Wonder if just breaking small pieces of seroquel will help. Ehhh… Idk. Wish I haven’t become so anxious. I hate worrying. At least I’m not the crazy kind of anxious.
Going to have a new doctor soon as my insurance changed. Hopefully I can find a good therapist and doctor. So there’s SOMETHING to look forward to. Then the hypothetical dead “ex bf” story can be told to a professional. Yeah.
To say I talk to dead people and disclose our relationship in full will definitely put me in psych.
Reeeaaaallly don’t feel like going would help. At all.
I miss being with my family too. Even though I hated everyone, I miss being with them. All five of us living under the same roof. With the holidays already here it’s got me feeling sad I can’t be with my family like that again. Don’t even know if I can even have my own. Not even sure if I want to.
It’s kind of unbelievable. Erik is just as sad as I am enough to say he’s in hell too. I wish he wouldn’t say that being he’s, you know… Dead and shit. 😕
He’d been drilling it into my head how much he loves me. Im just so insecure because well for a lot of reasons I feel are valid. *sigh* I told him he doesn’t have to keep saying it. Have got my moments but I’m not THAT neurotic (jeez). He likes saying it. Well then I guess it’s okay 😊.
Been thinking it might be a good idea to do a video entry every now and then. Public speaking isn’t my best suit so Idk.
He’s still making fun of me about the thing that happened at Walmart. That guy… 🤣 I’m still recovering from the near run-in with his doppelganger. Hahaha! If it was a stunt, it was a good one. Maybe it was him idk. Actually don’t want to know. It would play with my head.
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Don’t forget to take a look at Erik’s blog ran by his amazing mom Dr Elisa Medhus. Lots of stuff about his afterlife and shit.(◕‿◕)♡