This blog is a backup of the one hosted at Tumblr and is updated regularly.

I don’t need or want fame, popularity, clout, your money, deals, your opinions or whatever. I won’t sell out or “sell my soul” because I respect my journey. This blog is sharing my experiences with having a twin soul on the other side. All I want to do is help those who may be dealing with the same things.

Special note: I don’t have comments enabled and you will not be able to contact me in any means. Even on Tumblr I have it set so only friends can comment. This is so that my focus remains on writing in my blogs and about my experiences.

If you found my blog because you are also experiencing similar things or by happenstance and want to reach out, I’m truly sorry but I hope the wealth of information here is helpful. Know you aren’t alone and it’s so important that you strengthen your line of communication with your ts in spirit and that you work closely with them.

Didn’t think I’d have to say this:

The highest form of ignorance is to reject something you know NOTHING about.

Here is a list of probably helpful links on some topics that makes it easy to navigate the blog should there be any topic you care to read up on.

Open links as a new tab for better navigation as they will most likely lead you to my tumblr.

About me – basic info about myself.

Confidence in my journey – Why I don’t care if Erik is my TF (or not).

Have a TF on the other side? – Words of advice from a veteran.

Living in your TF’s Memory – Suggestions on how you can help the planet raise it’s vibrations with love.

Working e-novel based on this blog – Work in progress. It’s a bit difficult to write but I try to add more when I feel up to it.

Guardians Of The Four Realms (aka “Home”) –

A lot of detail about our “Home” and what I’ve learned and still learning about it.

Galactic Guardians aka Incarnated Gods

Chariot Of The Gods




Vanessa aka “A”

Spiritual Work 

Stuff we have worked on together resulted in growth and understanding. This is the bulk of our stuff and other things I’ve learned.


Archangel Michael

Archangel Raphael



Past Life aka Parallel-Self

Spirit Spouse

Channeling Erik <<< All about my TF

Birthday Letter – The actual handwritten letter HERE.

Lessons – Valuable things I’ve learned during the course of this journey, –Work in progress as I have to dig through old posts.

Years –

Important details, events or situations happening in that time.






Misc. –

Just stuff of not as much importance and shit.

My life – Shit about me; picturesperformances/SoundCloudTourret Syndrome and Autism/Asperger’s.

Me and Rick – Shinnanagins me and my partner do or get into. The towns most annoying couple.

Food porn – I am a graduated chef from Le Cordon Bleu. Sometimes I post my food and recipes. Since graduation, my love for cooking has diminished and have not worked professionally in a long long time.

RIP – Late friends who I was really close with and miss dearly. Posts dedicated to Matt , Alex , and Odin (my cat).

Fandoms – shit I like or am a fan of.

Bass playing – Covers and practices.

Vlogging / Videos – Video logs

Gamer Tags – Because I game about 80% of my life.

Questions/Answers – People have asked, and I answered.

Twin Flame Movies – Movies I’ve seen that generally have the twin flame vibe. Very few exist.


Artwork – Mostly flowers because that’s all I’ve been drawing since I was a kid but they are pretty like the ones decorated on this blog.


Cat-turd-day (caturday) – Pictures of my cat(s).

Astral Home – A duplicate build of the place I go to when I talk to Erik and my guides in The Sims 4.

Our Playlist – YouTube Playlist (public)

Dreams – A collection of dreams leading up to this spiritual journey where Erik was mostly present.

Conversations – A few logs of channelings here and there with Erik, god, angels and guides.

Haters – A collection of obvious trolls, and bad actors. I don’t put up with bullies and I enjoy calling them out.

My Intuitive Blog and Reviews / Feedback – I am a Tarot Reader and Channeler.

– Hadassah Monique

Other Tumblr blogs:

TheStonedPriestess.Com @the-stoned-priestess Intuitive blog where I offer free full-length card readings. Please do not ask me on this blog!

@bhagdadbarbie my regular blog outside of spiritual or esoteric shit. Random thoughts, social commentary, and shit posts.

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hey over thinkers, we’re gonna be okay.

Are we tho

What exactly IS okay?

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These dreams go on when I close my eyes

Every second of the night I live another life

These dreams that sleep when it’s cold outside

Every moment I’m awake the further I’m away

– Heart, These Dreams

It’s funny the lady at the subway I frequent was talking about dreams and I shared a few of my stories with Erik. I wrote a post yesterday about my concern for how I travel. Just a coincidence but it’s funny this song was playing while we were talking about all that. Also funny that I’ve been listening to a lot of Heart songs the past couple of days and it never dawned on me that Heart did this song too! 😂 Lol

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Almost done with crocheting a small draw-string bag. 😊

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NDE Or Dream Travel

I have the ability to travel. No, I don’t always set out to travel before I go to sleep but I do go to places that look like or remind me of Near Death Experience stories I’ve been listening to recently on the YT Channel, Heaven Awaits. You should listen to them.

It’s either I have an undetected heart condition where periodically it stops beating or I am a le to slow my heart rate down so low that I’m able to trigger these events;

1. I’m starting to think that dream I had about what happened BEFORE I incarnated wasn’t what I thought it was. I think rather than it being before I was born, it could have been that I was being shown what I was supposed to accomplish in this life and being so high on the spirit juice I really didn’t want to return back to my body or wake up. Because I made it very very clear I didn’t want to go back to earth. Erik was there to drag me to that meeting and tell me what I needed to do in this life. I didn’t want to do that either. In 2015 I had already given up Erik and anything spiritual related because I didn’t see a point in any of it anymore.

2. The dream that I had visiting Erik. He was made of light and I’ll never forget his smile. Everything was bright and beautiful. I was aware that I was somewhere else and heard children laughing and playing. Erik laughed at my confusion and said, “They are our children!” It was a dream Ive written about before but I can’t find it here. Go figure.

Since being pregnant I’ve wondered if one of those children is this one I’m having. I’m so happy to be pregnant and the idea that one of ours could be this one reborn with me again makes me a little emotional. It’s because Erik died before I could find him. Finding him had been my life goal since I was a little girl. A psychic warned me of his death months before he had committed suicide and when I intuitively knew he had died that winter I gave up the idea of ever being happy again.

Don’t get me wrong, Rick is amazing! I’m pregnant with HIS kid and I rather it be him than anyone else. I tried loving other people. It just never worked out. Long story short Rick and I reconnected. We met months after Erik died in 2010 and at the time wasn’t interested in a serious relationship because I was dealing with grief I didn’t at the time understand.

Both dreams seem to be like NDEs in the way I experienced them. Hard to describe 8n words but fresh in my mind. I didn’t want to go back to reality as I knew it. Especially when Erik told me about our children. I just didn’t want to live in a world without him and my children in it. I understand this blog wether you believe it or not is part of my purpose. I’ve known since 2015 I’d have a blog like this and tried to make one but lacked experiences which would come a year or two later. I feel good about what I’ve done or accomplished since 2015.

So do I have an underlying heart issue, breathing problem, sleep apnea or do I have the ability to trigger something like an NDE while asleep? Honestly I don’t care enough to find out. These dreams are close to my heart and they mean the world to me no matter what the cause. It’s because of these dreams I’m still here today and continue to share my experiences on this journey.

To note; during the time both of these dreams happened, I was with someone who thought I stopped breathing in my sleep…🤷‍♀️

😘💕 Good night y’all!

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Caturday Saints and Caturday Adventists

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Just an inch to go to get to my old length! It took 3 years (because of some setbacks and mistakes) ! Cut it to my ears this month in 2019. I’m going to stop the Brazilian keratin treatments and let it curl when it gets closer to my butt! 😆

I took out my extensions after wearing them since June and did a fresh Brazilian keratin treatment. My hair is about as long as my extensions and I’m going to give myself a break from them or sell off the bit I have left.

The grey in my bangs is natural 😂 I’ve been going grey there since I was 14.

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